Grandma,
It has been sixty-one days, 51 minutes since you left and I find myself missing you more and more each minute.
The girls and I had a lot of fun in Las Vegas. We all got to wear some of your jewelry, and that meant a lot. However, everything else in my life is still falling apart. I can feel your presence more and more as things keep getting tougher. I just wish you were here so I could have someone to talk to. No one else is able to fill the growing void .
I really don't want to complain and be sad. I know that you simply wouldn't stand for it. You have made me the woman I am today and I know you wouldn't want to see me in the state that I am in now. I've been pretty good at holding it together but it's all a lie. I am trying to be the strong woman I know I am but I'm rapidly losing my grip. Everyone is trying to hard to help me out but I can't even help myself. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve people's grace, and other times I feel that I always get the short end of the stick no matter how hard I work. I just need your encouragement because I know that you have always believed in me, and for some reason your rationale is the only one I will let myself listen to. I'm being selfish in wanting you to be there for me, I know this is something I must do myself in order to grow, but it's so hard without you.
I know things will get better, I just can't seem to convince myself of it yet. I love you so much and I miss you even more. I hope you're well, and please say hi to Nooski and Grandpa Don for me. I love you!
Kaarin
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
6/17
Grandma,
It has been 51 days, 17 hours and 56 minutes since you left. I still miss you more than ever. I haven't written in quite a while and I must apologize. I have been having a hard time, but that shouldn't stop me from posting.
I talked with Kathy a while back and she has taken Mittens over to her house to live there. She got a haircut and ear mite medicine. She has her house(s) with her heating blankets and she seems pretty happy. Kathy adores Mittens and is taking really excellent care of her. She is still adjusting, but she will do well, I'm sure of it. I tried to get a picture of her silly haircut, but Mittens got embarassed and ran away. Kathy said she would hold Mittens almost every hour. That's dedication! I told Kathy that she and Jan E were really the only ones who could get through to Mittens.
I am just working, dealing with my mess of a house, etc. On Thursday I go to Las Vegas. I did not do well this quarter... I'm disappointed but it was really tough. I have a meeting with my advisor next week to talk about it.
I need to go for now, but please know that I love you and I miss you!
Kaarin
It has been 51 days, 17 hours and 56 minutes since you left. I still miss you more than ever. I haven't written in quite a while and I must apologize. I have been having a hard time, but that shouldn't stop me from posting.
I talked with Kathy a while back and she has taken Mittens over to her house to live there. She got a haircut and ear mite medicine. She has her house(s) with her heating blankets and she seems pretty happy. Kathy adores Mittens and is taking really excellent care of her. She is still adjusting, but she will do well, I'm sure of it. I tried to get a picture of her silly haircut, but Mittens got embarassed and ran away. Kathy said she would hold Mittens almost every hour. That's dedication! I told Kathy that she and Jan E were really the only ones who could get through to Mittens.
I am just working, dealing with my mess of a house, etc. On Thursday I go to Las Vegas. I did not do well this quarter... I'm disappointed but it was really tough. I have a meeting with my advisor next week to talk about it.
I need to go for now, but please know that I love you and I miss you!
Kaarin
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